im so sorry

Im so sorry, I guess its a little too late for that, but if it still matters, im so sorry. Im sorry for what I am, for what I said, for what I tried to do, im sorry for being so stupid, i guess theres nothing I can do but ask for your forgiveness (if that word exists...),

I know, I know, my english its not that good, its just that when Im ashamed I can only speak in english (beside the fact that today im feeling oh so stupid) I know, I messed it up like always and I wish I could wake up of this nigthmare, walk by your side and no to feel the sensation de que youre running away from me, that you dont trust me anymore, that you cant even look at my face, that Im the most horrible person on earth,

Im weak, and I hate it, and I cry and I hate it, you barely speak to me and I hate it, and I can do anything but hate everything around me,

Maybe I dont even deserve being by your side, horrible people deserves horrible treatment, and horrible ___________, maybe Im just down, and I feel like shit, oh God, im so sorry, and theres anything i can do to fix what Ive done,

Should I be feeling guilty???, I feel pain, sadness, and, copying Mena, I have a dragon que me esta haciendo la vida imposible, oh God, I feel this really painfull thing and Im tired of taking pills, cause Im not getting any better, dont know If I can carry on. A friend call me last nigth, she heard me crying, and started to cry with me, told her that I cant carry on, and its true,

Im so sorry, but I just... cant.